Monday, May 31, 2010

Allah,permudahkanlah mereka

salam 'alayk

just a quick entry,

please blast this msg.thank you.

daripada seorng sahabat ;

"mohon doa dari kalian.semoga Allah permudahkan misi ini,moga Allah memberi kemenangan bagi mujahidin, kesabaran pada umat Islam dan kehancuran Israel serta golongan murtaddin dan munafiqin yang bersama mereka" 

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Qunut nazilah



 

 Ya Allah, hancurkanlah orang-orang kafir dan musyrik itu. Berilah rasa takut kepada musuh-musuh kami, musuh-musuhMu, dan musuh-musuh agamaMu. Ya Allah, muliakanlah agama Islam dan kaum muslimin. Rapatkanlah tali kasih sayang dalam sanubari mereka dan perbaikilah hubungan kekeluargaan diantara mereka serta berilah pertolongan kepada mereka dalam melawan musuh-musuhMu dan musuh-musuh kaum muslim.

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terasa Bumi Gaza berada dekat dgn kami,terasa memori 4bulan lalu tika menjejakkan kaki di  sempadan Israel menggamit kembali.Allah,selamatkanlah para mujahiddin,selamatkanlah saudara2 kami .ameen ya Rabb

wslm 

 p/s: pergi kat mycomputer dan letak alamat ini (C:\Program Files\Microsoft Office\MEDIA\CAGCAT10\J0285926.WMF) kat address bar.Image itu adalah gabungan logo bendera Zionis Israel (Bintang) dan juga logo Mossad (Lilin). Delete sahaja logo itu.

Sunday, May 30, 2010

7 days left..hati tolonglah kuat !!

salam 'alayk

hm
jika lihat pd nombor
mcam lama lagi
tapi.bak kata hukama'
masa itu pedang..bile2 je akan memotong org2 yg leka.*sigh*

***.
my preparation for this coming human assessment (?)
aku hanya mampu berusaha sehabis baik
yg lain aku serahkan pada Allah,
tawakal dan doa
doa itu senjata muslim
moga2.segala usaha d berkati..i.Allah.
makin dekat exam.bisikan syaitan makin bermain2 d hati
once again.a long sighhhhhhhhhhh for that.

entah kenapa.masa ambil wudhu' td..
laju air mata mengalir,lamaaaaaaaaa..T_T
mom,really need u beside me right now..
macam2 bnde berselirat dlm otak ni
body temperature keep rising.since smlm tak sedap bdn
doakan kesihatan saya.please.please.please

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FB di mataku

sudah beberapa hari jugak diri ni "berjaya" activate FB
walau ade yg akan kate:
"deactivate pastu activate balik,tah ape2"
ak terima kata2 itu
                   terima kasih daun keladi                   
takkn ade siapa yg tahu kenape ak buat itu dan ini
biar Allah sja tahu isi hati ini

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sudah ku kata dari awal
diri ini mmg ta kuat.
iman ku mmg goyah..
*walau sudah tahu bnde tu salah*
Allah.ampunkan hambaMu
hati ni mmg tidak tenang sejak on FB
nmpk mcm gembira je kan ak on FB tu
tp padahal..Allah je yg tau
rasa mahu je deactivate selama2nya
tp sygkan ukhuwah antara rakan2 yg da lame terputus :( 




Dalam sebuah hadis Qudsi yang diriwayatkan Al-Bukhari dan Muslim dari Aisyah r.a, Rasulullah SAW bersabda yang ertinya  Allah SWT berfirman:

Aku, Tuhan Yang Maha Pengasih, dan sifat kasih sayang itu Aku pecahkan dari salah satu nama-Ku; oleh karena itu, barangsiapa yang menjalin hubungan kasih sayang itu, maka Aku pun menyambung kasih sayang dengannya, dan barangsiapa memutuskan hubungan silaturrahim itu, maka aku memutuskan hubungan kasih sayang dengannya”.



sahabat ikhwah...
bkn sengaja diri tidak approve kalian
bkan sengaja dri ini block kalian* for certain person yg saye mmg ta kenal!*
salahkah sya berbuat demikian krn kita mmg tdak mengenali sesama kita?
(hairan saya,bila sesetngah hamba allah add,dan sye ignore,dan kembali add kemudian di ignore semula oleh saya,dan seterosnya akan mendapat PM di inbox)
-apa tujuannya??-

A: "awak..cantik,solehah"
B: "saya tahun akhir d U***,kos Quran dan Sunnah,final year.tut tutt tuuutt
C: "awak,kenapa tidak reply msg saya"
D: "kenapa awak tak approve saya"

awak itu.awak ini.dan byk lagi.
tuntasnya,mereka bukan sekadar mahu menjadi kawan
tetapi mahu mengenali lebih dari itu
dan menjadi teman istimewa
saya bukan semudah itu..!!


bukan tujuan utk mengaibkan sesiapa
bila mndapat PM dari seorang hamba Allah
berlatar belakang pengajian agama di sebuah institusi terhebat
rasa sedih.pilu.bila mndapat msg yg tdak menggmbarkan  ilmu yg ada di dada
sya bukan yg terhebat utk berdebat ttg ikhtilat
tapi jika ilmu yg telah di didik sedari kecil dulu tidak saya apply?
apa erti hidup saya dgn ISLAM??
cukuplah.cukup!
diri ini utk suamiku.stop.
tidak mahu fitnah itu ini timbul



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dan tak perlulah kalian menjadi shabat alam maya saya
bukan diri ini sombong!BUKAN!!
cukuplah kalian sbgai sahabat semuslim.saudara seislam saya
maaf jika kalian dapati sy telah DELETE kalian as my friend
saya berbuat demikian utk certain person,bukan semua!
yg saya rase sudah tegur utk berpada2 dlm pergaulan dgn sya
tapi tidak d endahkan.maafkan diri ini
tiada rugi tidak mengenali saya.MAAF sahabat
ak bahagia dgn keterbatasan ikhtilat ini
 ak punya prinsip tersendiri
saya bukan putuskan ukhuwah
tetapi sya menjaga apa yg telah d tetapkn syari'e
walau pedih bila diri d kata sombong
walhal kta tdak pernah bersua muka
mulut manusia tak siapa bole tutup..


~ diri ini hanya utk zauji tercinta ~


Nabi Muhammad SAW juga bersabda: “Pandangan adalah panahan beracun daripada panahan iblis. Sesiapa yang menundukkan pandangannya daripada kecantikan wanita maka Allah mewariskan di hatinya kemanisan yang dimilikinya hingga hari bertemu denganNya.”

last but not least
mohon maaf atas segala kesilapan
 -stdy groupmate,PBLmate,housemate,coursemate,dan shbt2 lain-

sy mohon doa kalian
doakan kami d beri kejayaan untuk ujian duniawi yg bakal menjelma
doakan kami LULUS dgn cemerlang
doakan hati ini tabah dgn ujianNYA
doakan diri ini thabat dgn haluanNYA

wslm



Wednesday, May 19, 2010

exam is approaching

salam 'alayk

(ngarut mungkin)

mood makin dekat da nak exam.hee

palpitations makin macammmmmmm........
ilmu yg makin byk d bace,
rse makin byk tatau,
Ya Allah,berikan kami kekuatan...
pemudahkan lah kami
Ya allah luluskanlah kami semua
redhakanlah segala ilmu yg kami pelajari ini
dan berikan keberkatanMu itu

jauhkan kami dari su'dzon yg dtg..
hati yg berbolak balik..
uih,syaitan durjana!pergilah jauh2
saat diri nak mula fokus,
mula la ingatan tah kemana..
besarnye dugaan.sob sob sob..


i.allah,we'll do our very best
the end of the story..let Allah do the rest
yg penting we've a great effort for it aight..
assessment Allah vs assessment manusia
sila la utamakan yg lebih utama!!

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let this collage pics tell some story@s.haha.*poyo*



smlm lepas telan pcm
teros terlelap dgn case kat sblah :D
migraine lepas bace the horrible case kot
smpi tersalah reply msg.haha.malu den.
kalo tenga mamai mmg camtu.. 
 kul 2pagi 

godek2 folder "family"
tgk pics bdak ni
*ak tenga homesick eh??bdak besa ngade2.apeakukesa.*
damnly miss this lil cutey creature
rase nak je call Along hari2
nak abeskan credit voip tu
sbb call dari egypt kan muraaaaa.huuu
nak denga dy bebel2..even pelat...
tp comel sore dy,cam sore mak busu dy.keh2
adam ta kenal ak pon tape la..iskkkk.smpi hatimu..
ade ke patot ta kenal muke mak busumu yg comel ni!!haishhh
tah sape2 pnye name adam sebut.cett..


conclusion :
HOMESICK dlm sume jasad n roh bdak2 Mansoura :D

qoute kata-kata dari buku La Tahzan :

"Perasaan rindu jangan dilayan, nanti rosakkan diri"
 


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hari2 mst sume akan ckp da ta saba nk balik Malaysia
rilek la..ak ta beli tiket lagi.huhu
tapi hanan kate " ta lari Malaysia tu,focus on ur exam"
...phewww...baek dear,akn ku dengar nasihatmu itu :)
tapi da 3kali mimpi da smpi KLIA.hampehhh~
last2 bgun ade atas katil,bilik E2 gak..
huuuu




oke dokie
da tatau pe bnde nak ngarut lagi
stdy group menanti..
korng mmg suke bg ak explain task yg susa..
aduyaiii..
takpe..ak try okehhhhh ^_~

oke
doakan kami LULUS

wslm

(last entry utk fatrah exam,jmpe after exam)

-nuradibahabubakar is now offline-

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how fast time flies..
i miss U..mwahxxxxx






Saturday, May 15, 2010

to all future Doctors.this is the real facts!!!

Why we left and why we will continue to leave...

 
          I read an interesting article today about a few prominent figures addressing their concern over the increasing UKM and UM medical graduates who have left the country to continue their medical practice overseas.
          After reading the news for 3 times, I called a very close friend, an MD (UKM) graduate to ask his opinion on how the news might have affected him. He has been working in Singapore for more than a decade as a Consultant Surgeon with a certain sub-specialty
"Why be a slave in your own country, when you are a king in another?" He replied.
Indeed, if anybody would want to find a reason why all of us left, either after housemanship, after being a specialist, or even after sub specializing, and now, even prior to doing housemanship, they need not look at our payslip, or the wealth that we have gained overseas, but only to the Medical System that has been rotting in the ignorance and politic-based stupidity that Malaysia has been well-known for (in the medical field).
        I have served the system for nearly 2 decades of my career, waiting for it to improve for so long, and only finding myself in despair, quitting with a 24-hour notice and serving abroad. The system is, in my opinion, keeping doctors, since the beginning of their career as House Officers to the end of it, in the lowermost priority. When I was working there, doctors are so ill-treated, while the nurses and the medical assistants are overpowering us.
       I still remember the days when I was doing seeing patients and rounds as an MO, while the staff nurses would mind their own business, having breakfast in the pantry, or having gossip chats at their own leisure. My House Officers would then have to do merely all the labour-work, up to the extent of setting intravenous drips, and serving medications. If I am to expect the nurses, my patients would have been dead, or the work would have been too slowly or incompletely done.
When I was a House Officer, I had to run down 4-5 floors just to review a blood investigation of a dying dengue patient. The ward staff would either be nowhere around, or will say that he is busy (busier than the doctor?) or the answer I got at that time:

"Doktor nak cepat, doktor turun sendirilah, gaji doktor lagi banyak dari saya"
Even when I was a Specialist, the staff nurses had to be called again and again just to make sure the management plan for the patient would be done. I was already used to answers from them:
“I’m busy with something else"
“My shift is already over"
...it was routine for me.
       The Medical Assistants were worse. They would hide behind their so-called boss, the Head of Medical Assistant. They feel hiding behind him would make them not under our jurisdiction, that we have no power to instruct them in managing the patient, that they have power to manage own their own. I've seen them giving medications not as we prescribed, performing procedures without our knowledge, as if they are the actual "Doctors". They are in their own world, and we have to do their job, taking blood, labelling samples, and even cleaning gadgets from the procedures that we have done.
Oh, but the ministry loves this group. They even let them run a clinic now, instead of upgrading the clinics already run by doctors. The government feels that the MAs are very important and should never be ill-treated by those big bad doctors. One time when I was a District Hospital Medical Officer, I was conducting a delivery of a baby. An MA insisted that I remove my car which was block-parking his car. I answered through the phone that I was busy.
 He came to the labor room and yelled "Semua orang pun sibuk jugak, macamlah doktor seorang yang sibuk!” 
        It is insulting that an MA or a staff nurse claims that they are BUSY, as busy as a doctor? As a Malaysian Doctor, I have even worked for 72 hours straight. I have experienced working until my 6 month old daughter did not recognize me at the end of the week.
Is that how busy they are? I am very sure that they are so busy, that they can only spend 2 hours at the nearby Mamak stall, or can only leave at 5:10 PM instead of 5, or can only have 1 hour of lunch.
The management staffs are worse. I have to beg and plead so that I can get my on-call claims, of RM25 per 48 hours of work. While sitting in an air-conditioned office, they will at their own leisure, process my call claims so that I will receive them by the next decade.
        The state health or Hospital Director would just give another inspirational talk (of bollocks) on team effort and beauty of teamwork.
That is how Malaysian doctors are treated in the government sector: without respect, without dignity and without significance. Why?
It is because we are bound by ethics to try our best to save lives, despite how ill-treated we are. We hardly have time to complaint because we are too busy or tired, and we would rather spend the precious time resting or seeing our loved ones. The burden of trying to save lives is on our shoulders alone. No MAs or Staff nurses would shoulder it with us. They have their own bosses: the Sisters, Matrons, or Head of MAs, which job description is to ensure that the big bad doctors will not ask their underlings to do extra work.
        This is how the Malaysian Ministry of Health have treated their doctors. I am very sure that in each and every doctor, there is a slowly-burning patience in serving the Malaysian people, which will eventually fade and cause them to surrender to serving a place that treats them better.
A few colleagues who graduated from UK choose to serve there:
"The pay is more, and we get the respect we deserve"
Another works in Brunei:
“Here the staff nurses respect Malaysian doctors, and they are very co-operative" (He ended up marrying one)
A few are consultants in Singapore (working with me):
"Here we are treated well, we spearhead the management, and every else do their work to the best of their capabilities".
A few even enjoys working in Indonesia:
“The work-load is horrible since there are a lot of patients, but we are well respected by every hospital personnel" (They have migrated there for nearly a decade)

      I am sure that people will see doctors as power-hungry individuals who want to be the boss in the hospital. Trust me, after having graduated 6-7 years of medical school, earning a DEGREE, and subsequently MASTERS, and SUBSPECIALITY, you would expect a degree of respect and being considered important. We are trying our best to improve patient's quality of life, or making sure he lives another day. Is it too much to ask from the system that we are important?
     I find that Malaysia is the only country that is making doctors' lives miserable and treated like rubbish. It was never about the pay in the first place. It is about the treatment we are getting and the false political-based promises. Do you know that the so-called circular about doctors can have the day off after working 24 hours straight released JULY 2009 is not yet implemented? Do you know that the raise of UD 41 to 44 does not involve every doctor in the government service?
      We are waiting for improvement. We have waited a long time when we were working in the system. Somewhere along the line we decided to leave and wait outside the system. Until the system changes, we will continue to work overseas, in countries which are appreciative of us. Trust me, Malaysian-graduate doctors are considered highly skilful and competent in neighbouring countries, and the 15 % brain drain is more significant than you think.
      We will return when the system prioritize us and gives us the quality of life we deserve.
If it stays the same, Malaysian Hospitals would end up having Staff nurses and Medical Assistants as "Doctors", and we would have to send patients to Indonesia for an appendicectomy.

Hear our voice. We hardly speak, but will usually fade away from conflict (and fly to another place).


p/s: hopefully there will be some changes in our system when we graduate soon(hehe) and we'll deserve our right :)

Friday, May 14, 2010

art of patience

salam 'alayk

alhamdulillah,
dlm bz fatrah exam masih sempat "menarikan" jari2 kat blog ni :p
baru je dpt unseen case..benign prostatic hyperplasia....@_@
patot la Prof bwat jugak lect anti-cancer yg postponed ai2..
alhamdulillah again..thanx Allah


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makinmakinmakin tensi pabila makin smpi ke hujung case
7.8.9.10......byk lagi weyh ta cover!hailaaaa...
input,input,input..OUTPUT?? *sigh
allah yusallim 3laina..

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“Learn the art of patience. Apply discipline to your thoughts when they become anxious over the outcome of a goal. Impatience breeds anxiety, fear, discouragement and failure. Patience creates confidence, decisiveness, and a rational outlook, which eventually leads to success.” -Brian Adams


Bare in ur mind dear,“Infinite patience will not produces immediate results”.The true meaning of this statement is grasped when you understand the result that patience gives you. Patience gives you calmness, peace and, most importantly, belief.Look back over the past month. How many problems have been caused by you running out of patience????How much frustration, stress, unhappiness and irritation have you experienced as a result of this. How many opportunities have you not fully realised because you loss patience.fasobrun jameel =)

And it may be that you dislike something while it is good for you; and it may be that you love something while it is bad for you. And Allah knows while you do not know. (2:216)



p/s:cuti summer extend just for a week!arghh..sedih sgt2, a day after alang's wedding!! ((
p/s/s:medical terminology is excluded from final marks.alhamdulillah but still burdenning us.dugaan batch..


wslm

Thursday, May 6, 2010

semoga dia terima pembalasan dariNya

salam 'alayk

masih menggigil..
masih fobia dgn jeritan mama td
kesian.
tu je yg bole ckp..
mama tu dlm lingkungan 5o-an mungkin
lari dlm keadaan ta larat dek usia
termengah2..air mata seolah2 mahu berjujuran td..
*ingatan tros pada mak*

jeritan yg mula2 kami ingat sekadar mainan,
rupe2nye jeritan dari mangsa ragut.
Allahuakbar..nauzubillah min zalik ya rabb
bnde ni berlaku kat syarie kami
depan sha'ah kami..
depan mata kami..
takot sgt2..

utk akhowat sume *utk dri ni jugak*
mungkin ni peringtan utk kte semua
please please please
jgn keluar without musyrif waktu mlm
mmg kadang2 terase membebankan ikhwah
tapi demi kemaslahatan bersama..
please take precaution..
kalau rase mls gne musyrif
jgn keluar malam!!

makin byk sebnrnye musibah berlaku sejak summer menjengah
tatau ape masalah arab ni..
akhowat di rogol,
rumah d pecah masuk,
ragut..etc..

Ya allah,lindungilah kami dari segala macam musibah 

wslm

Monday, May 3, 2010

ich vermisse dich liebe

salam 'alayk

izaiyik 3laikum..
hehe..
da lame mcm ta meraban2 kat blog ni kan
(pdhal bru seminggu)..lalala :D

bru abes membace case utk bakal d "present" tomorrow
chairman pbl esok..huehehe..i loike :)
i.allah.MRSA oke je kot..

so,nak merapu kjap kat cni :)

ohh..
mnggu2 mendtg
hari2 mendtg
detik demi detik yg mendtg
sye semakin rindu Malaysia
ich vermisse dich so sehr ..
wahestuniy awiyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy :(
oh,damnly..
hari2 tggu ym ngn mak.walaweyhh
mmg da superb home-sick da neh
even kdg2 mak ta o9 pon.sob3
either mak kat muar or kepenatan tavelling(ksian mak,ta dpt trnsfer mlake lg)
tp dlm kerinduan pon..<<<<
kerisauan dgn 11 case yg perlu d cover utk final exam makin mencuakkn dri *hyperbola cket*
bersame2..microbes n immunology seakan2  bikin pecah ini kepala.huuu..
kadang2 rse mahu mengalah..sigh..


btw,
td tgk result
alhamdulillah
thanx Allah :)
do make extra efforts darl !!
i can do it.chaiyok.
keep praying guys
semoga kte semua d beri kekuatan dan d permudahkan ..
let do our very very very best
let Allah do the rest


oke
da abes mase berblogging
study jommmmmmm..
LL da menanti kat meja stdy.
Ich liebe dich so sehr  :-*
wslm

*oh isi tunggang langgang.mau express ni,paham2 sndri la*